Sometimes i just need to sit back and reflect at where i have been and where i want to go. Today was one of those days as i sat at work looking at where i am in live. I could honestly say that i would not have imagined my life being where it is today. When i think of only five years ago, August of 2005, i was in the process of moving from Georgia up to North Carolina. That was a big decision and one that i felt would be a stepping stone to a life that i was completely unsure of at that time. I had just returned from an amazing summer spent in Brisbane, Australia and was a little sad to be back in the states to be honest. For anyone who has traveled, would share my sentiments in that the rest of the world holds new experiences and desire that our small portion of this great big world does not do justice to that greater sphere of what is out there. But there i was moving to somewhere where i knew no one and do not really have any direction other than i felt i was suppose to be at a master's program for theology. I enjoyed the classes and learned a lot about how serious i can take learning and also opened my eyes about certain people and views that are going to be leading people. While i was learning educational information, i was also learning things about myself and realizing points of view from myself. i have A LOT that i have to work on and i am constantly a work in progress. One thing that i can say about myself is that i make it through life without too many worries. I guess it could be called a gift from God but honestly, i just don't worry about a lot of things and when i do worry it is intense and then over and forgotten about. This is also a negative trait because it also means i do not develop a passion for many things. I have a very reserved attitude and to get excited is almost too much work for me in many ways. I do enjoy having fun but sometimes i almost rather take it easy and immerse myself in worlds that are vivid and dare say imaginery. As a side note, i believe this is the reason that i am absolutely love watching movies. there is something about being transported into a new world that is alive and invites me to be a part of that world if only for 2 hours. So all that is too say that i have arrived in North Carolina 5 years ago without a solid direction and without any direct plan. Within a year and a half, i would have met a girl, fallen in love and married her by the following November. Talk about a change of direction, now i had someone who i could share everything with and at the same time could look to for inspiration and motivation to become the person that i need to be. She always said that the past is what makes her who she is and said believes each person has been given a path that develops them. *(she may not say that exactly but as i said i am not always one given to trivial persuits, a great memory is one of those pursuits which i have not taken seriously). So we made plans for one day to have a family and plan for our future. So within 3.5 years of marriage and here i am looking forward to celebrating our four years in November with the expectation of twin girls before the new year comes. Talk about change--5 years and my life has become one of self introspection to one of there is three others that will count on me and what i do with my life.
So i write all this thinking is the life that i envisioned for myself when i reached 27 years old and almost 10 years out of high school. Of course not! But do i have a great life and blessed beyond what i deserve--OF COURSE! There is so much that i enjoy from my life that i doubt i would have been able to foresee my life now. So with these past five years, what could the next five years hold??
All that i can say with assurance is that i will have a faithful and loving wife to hold onto during this journey and a God who despite my efforts remains ever faithful and provides for us. So i have to dream big and try my best to make my life one that is memorable. My big journey did not end when i returned from Australia but it truly began. So i must now find a journey that i have never imagined and stray away from my relaxed status and push for a new journey, a new life and a new world never imagined. In doing these actions, i may just find myself wondering again, how in 5 years has my life become what it is? amazing and unexpected!!
Here is to another great 5 years and may everyone find themselves in a place that is unexpected and beyond your best dreams!
